(…) Lately I've changed my way to think about music. Exactly one year ago, about my new album “ Do you remember the Rosegarden of Hauntedrealm ?” I gave interviews with passion in magazines, but the content are now completely of the past. Today, my way of thinking is completely the opposite. For a long, long time, I've been thinking that I had to sing the truth, what really happened to me, I've been imprisoned for a long time in this kind of concept. But, why was I thinking that way, what was the reason.
One day, I suddenly thought : why not lying. After all, it's just about songs (but even so, they are songs). If it can touch people's heart, it isn't forbidden to lie, I'm not a newscaster, neither a politician.
Before there was a guitarist called Gardie. Gardie wanted to play in a band, so as he wished I was always looking for members, without particular reason. I didn't even know why I was looking for them, at that period I let Gardie take care of what was around the sound, and concerning the members I had the role to make contact with them according to Gardie's request. For the rest I wasn't concerned, I let him take care of it as well. I didn't care about my role, all I wanted was to continue to make music with Gardie.
And I was thinking that to play in a band we had to always remain rock'n rollers, that rock was about our way of living, and that a rock'n roller mustn't sing imaginary lies.
Somewhere, out of my will, I've been like possessed by that thinking, I was bound hand and foot. Then it happened that Gardie left the band, and he was always repeating to me : "find another member", so that what I was doing for a moment. But one day, I suddenly returned to my first feelings and thought : "do I want to play in a band ?" The answer was : NO !
I only wanted to compose music with Gardie, if he isn't there, there is no need to play as a band. After all the members of a band are mostly boys, and I fundamentally don't like them. Even if we play together in a band, but if possible I don't want to become friendly with ordinary boys, I'd like them to keep their distance with me. For example, only hearing them saying : "when I told my girlfriend that I will play in Luci'fer-san's band, she was jealous" and smiling stupidly, I feel bad and I have gooseflesh, I'm like this. But from the moment I didn't need to sing in a band, I couldn't see anymore where was the need to have members, of being a rock'n roller, today I can't understand it anymore.
Then I felt liberated, and suddenly the lives become joyful for me, since then I include many dates in my schedule (…)
Since, what is important is just one thing : during only 5 minutes of a drama, up to where can I take everybody, it's only about that.
But then, in the songs of my solo albums or Fiction, have I been writing my sincere feelings ? Actually, I haven't. If the stories which constitute the basis of the songs are effectively of my own experiences, it wasn't always written from my side. It was even most of the time about the feelings of the ones who suffered because of me, I wrote many things that way, putting myself in their place. Because, unless, I didn't have such unfortunate experiences, I never lived tragic loves, moreover, it unthinkable for me to continue to think about someone who refuses to come towards me, and I don't want to become that much attached to someone. But from my happy experiences, I absolutely had, wanted to make romantic and beautiful music. You see, until now I was lying (…)
Illusion is Fiction. Trues lies. What's wrong. Then I wish to go on emitting sweet lies which will be as beautiful and romantic as possible.